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Preferences  Who is Nice presence?

My first novel: Nice presence

Nice presence... A wonderful person? A dream that will never come true? A mess in my brain? A Carmen kind of temptation woman? The devil in person? The angel of my life? A nice pastime for a writing time? A source of inspiration? A coming out story? A nightmare not yet revealed? A day to day life? Or simply the love of my life...

"But how to fall in love. Well I'm lucky, she is quite perfect. But even if she hadn't been, this is a question of state of mind. When we are afraid of love, we never fall in love. I was terribly afraid, because I knew this might hurt quite a lot. But even though, I wanted to try, because I felt this might be the right person and she wouldn't hurt me. She first came to me, remember? Well, I was afraid but I did resist to this force who told me not to fall, because control is everything for me. I am not hurt if I control. Control is the rules of happiness if you like life with no emotions. Control can be left, and this is the key to love, but also to pain. I had quite enough confidence in her to leave my control.

Then, I also left something more, my pride. I don't like to show how happy I am to see someone, or how sad I am to leave someone. That's something that I don't like to show because in my paranoid world, that's something people can use against you. This is still control in a way. So I started showing my happiness just how it was, with no filter.

My third step, my third rule for falling in love, specially in this case, is to not care about what people think. They will understand, that's what we have to believe, because actually, they seem to! So if you think this might be the right person, don't think the others might not think like you, they must be wrong.

My last step is called courage. You can let yourself be but not fall in love. If you want to fall in love, you have first to climb to go to the top. You can't fall from the valley. So you have to go, you have to show and prove your love. You have to tell, you have to feel. When you're at the edge, the courage will also be to look down, see how deep you can fall, but still jump. Why not? If you jump, you might not be alone. You might fall quite hard, but if your love is here, maybe this will give you wings to fly with."